Journal Entry: Sun May 10, 2015, 11:37 PM
Sorry I just need to vent. I'm tired of holding it all in. And I have no one to help so.
I'm acting like everything is fucking great when it's not. Hard for me to think that anybody cares at all sometimes, I have no one to help me when I'm at my darkest hour so I just learned to make myself better. Well overtime its beginning to fail which leads me here fucking ranting to people who won't even read this because no one cares.
I'm alone when it comes to suffering and that's fine whether I like it not. I've been left out and thrown out of almost all of my friends lives for no fucking reason. All because I was being myself. I wasn't being a bitch. I was just being kind and friendly. Basically I'm a shitty friend who they like using because that's all I've been doing now is just being used.
Its hard to write when all you want to do is just vent vent and vent. Hard to draw when your going through art block and have no inspiration what so ever to make fucking vent art or something. I'm just stuck.
I'm just tired of it all. Tired of these emotions. Tired of being thrown out. Tired of being left out.
I wish I had the ability to turn invisible whenever I wanted too.
So that I can hide and cry alone.